Tuesday, January 08, 2008
i wish i could care less about everything.i wish i could sit at home alone for the rest of my life. but guess what? its fucking boring . than i'll have to go out to have fun. but. i think im useless. no one needs me. in terms of job and friends. wrote like more than 20 fucking application forms but god knows what they do them. fuck. i rather tyou say no vacancy than let me fill in that bloody fucking form!. motherfuckers. friends. this word seems to not have a meaning on me anymore. it used to be the word i know most cause i usually use them. from what i recall, friends i slack with , have fun, spent time, and all. but now, i seems to be always alone at home, goin out alone downstairs and walking alone. the saddest part is, im fucking smoking alone. fuck that. i use to have a friend when i wanted to smoke, we would meet. ya, just to smoke. now , uh the word friends seems unsual to me. i feel like a complete loser with no friends and no job. most importantly, no life!. fucking fuck. i sit alone at home infront of this fucked up comp and wait for ppl to ask me out. and guess what? after i check back after some time, no one pmed me. what the fucking hell. am i that unnoticeable and useless!?! i dont know why this is happening.. mybe because i had been a fucking friend to god knows who in the past , and mybe its my turn? or is this just a test from above thats wants me to be patient? whatever it is, i'll just go with the flow and let nature takes it course. what about a girl? erm.. no way.. still sticking to this one mary jane watson i know. but she seems to like fucking still have no fucking idea. even after the letter. i donno but that isnt gonna change . not for now. until she at least have a full idea that im woo-ing her or until a good guy comes to her rescue. jsut wish the best for her. and i fucking miss her this holidays. shes so busy but i so bored. i just hope when results collect, that wont be our last please.
i almost hung up my line. cause i didnt wanna get call from people since im quiet usless and ppl would only text or call me when they have no choice. but than, instead, i upgraded my line. what the fucking fuck. guess i'll make the calls. no i wont. i wont the the guy who calls others asking wanna slack? no im sick of that cause most of the times i call, they will ya anything. but never. some even beter i come to slack sit like 3 fucking mins and they go off. what the fucking hell bitch? easy enough just say not slacking or smtg . or even say no they dont like me, im fine with that but making a fool outta me? your crossed the line you sick, shit senseless , motherfucking bastards. so the next time you take out your phone and dial my number, think again.
kHaidDiN 17 cooked on
6:39 AM
