Wednesday, January 30, 2008
bored. haven been updated for days. who reads this stuff anyway? passerby-s pls tag as i want to see how many actually come and read my shit.. ha. so currently waiting for melissa's reply. meeting her later i guess. ha. working at shop and save is not bat after all. not bad at all. ha. i like working there and i think i will continue to work there. ppl there are okay and friendly.
plus, almost everyone there smokes!. yeah. except arip, and the aunties. haa.
olevel results are sick but expected. ha. got 28 . with five credits. thats actually more than what i aimed for. ha. here are my choices ( in order );
Info Tech @ Dover
Electronic Engeering @ Dover
Electrical Engeering @ Dover
Nursing @ Ngee ann
Nursing @ NYP
Info Tech @ College east.
But did direct admissions to republic poly . hoping to go there. as for her. she's already found a place at tp. all the best.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Top Five.Top Five Artist:
Fifth. A Skylit Drive
4th. All Time Low
Third. Mayday Parade
Second. Fightstar
First. Dance Gavin Dance
Top Five Songs:
FiFth. And I told them i invented times new roman - DGD
Forth. Miserable at Best - Mayday Parade
tHird. Hey Nightmare, where did you get them teeth? - ASD
Second. Three Cheers for Five Years - Mayday Parade
FIRST. Remembering Sunday - ATL
Top Five Albums:
5th. So Wrong, It's Right - All Time Low
Forth. Voices - Matchbook Romance
3rd. One Day Son, This Will All Be Yours - Fightstar
Second. A Lesson In Romantics
First. Downtown Battle Mountain
Top Five All Time Favourite Bands :
Fifth.
Fourth.
Fhird. the All-American Rejects
Fecond. Fightstar
First. Matchbook Romance
Top Five Hairstyles: ( haHA!)
5th.
4th. Craig from BlessTheFall
3rd. Charlie From Fightstar
2nd. Alex from All Time Low
1st. Derek Sanders from Mayday Parade
Music.
Its hard when you have alot of friends but none of them, not even one share the same music with you. like how it is with me, i listen to my kind of music on my own, enjoy it on my own, but most sadly i cant get to share their talented and awsome music sounds with anyone. its really hard. one in every thousand will i find a person who has the same taste as me. Screamo / Hardcore / Post Hardcore / Rock / Experimental / Pop .
Dance Gavin Dance , Fightstar , Mayday Parade, All Time Low, A Skylit Drive, Just Surrender , Matchbook Romance (disband) .. and many more...
Monday, January 21, 2008
21.01.08Went out at around twelve, to dom's. went to jeremy's after that. till six plus. went to cwp. celebrated ben's birthday at eight-eight-three. than went home. ha.
20.01.08
Lets see, spent eighteen house in bed yesterday. wake at two, online till four , watched the tattooist, than went to sleep. nothing to talk about that actually. at night wake up and went online.
Friday, January 18, 2008
17.01.08Went to ngee ann poly with dom. walked around till we both find it useless cause nethier of us will be goin there. ha. than headed to cwp. wah the adult fares are a pain in the ass. go out like five bucks gone in the ezlink man. what a waste. anyways, there slacked. than mes and kunny came back than go find them. they bought me a CHOC CAKE. and presented it to be at the sweettalkbubbletea shop there and bow-ed. wth. thats really nice but i kinda feel paiseh lo. ha. than brought the cake here and there than dom wanted to head home so did i, than on the bus i remembered that i planned to eat the cake with mes. ha. so texted her and she said mybe later that night. so went home keep the cake cool and nice. ha. around ten plus mes ask me come down near kun house there. actually cant cause gotta wake my dad up but thought of a fast one. so met them, blew cake and made three wishes. one- pass olevel. two-get a new life. three-disclosed, but she made one wish for me that is to stop smoking, ouh i'm sorry. ha. and the best part was that there was no candles so they took one of my beautiful cigerattes and stuck it in the cake and lit it . wah imaginative. ha. ok so went home wake my dad up than met them again to go to mes house. so took cab there. sit, went to eat outside, ah mei, cheat ppl money. ha. went back to her condo sit along the pool. chatted till six plus than mes and kun went up to sleep and me and ong went to bustop outside. than took the first bus home. slept at nine plus than wake at twelve thirty.
18.01.08
Went to friday prayers, than went home changed , bought movie tix [ CLOVERFIELD ], than met ong. waited for awhile before could enter school. missed school. ha. went to hall ,where vollyball was training. met msgan, than play amongs ourself. went to cwp met my bro watched cloverfield. ended went down meet mes ong jo. than sit outside cwp there, they took pics while i was shivering cold from inside the movie theater. ha. than ten plus went home. took bus with mes . met aizzul sit at playground smoke awhile than went home.
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[ignore this portion, mainly for self-reflection]
Everytime i step in the house. hell breaks loose. scoldings and question will fly my way. i'm sick of this. i like being home alone. but thats boring. cause i dont feel happy when im at home with them cause i always get looked down and blamed on. being the youngest , i dont have all the freedom i want. heck. i'll always be the youngest. unless i'm gone. ha. to them, the world would be more peaceful and smooth sailing without me around . ha.
i've enjoyed this past few days. mainly because uh yeah i know why. but i know this is temporary. so gotta make full use of it when it comes. but i dint. ha. till the results comes out, so will the question.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
35 mins past midnight on the day i was born 17 years ago. i celebrated by sitting at the corridor with a slice of cake and a stick of cigeratte. thats all i can afford really. thanks to all those who wish me. bless you back with good results for GCE O LEVELs. =)
How i wish the phrase, "the irony of dying on your birth day" comes to good use now. totally useless and nothing. for now, i have nothing to life for. only when i get my gce results than i'll plan a new life ahead. a life different from what i used to be. with all those used to be people. and with the goin-to-be people. i know, there's a palce for me somewhere out there. i'm going to live in a world where i listen to my brain, not my heart. not like what i use to live like, cause in the end, it tallys up to nothing.i'm gonna live in a world where i do thing i need, not what i want. i'm gonna learn from my mistakes and not stand up from the rest. dissapointing ya, but i enjoyed it. too bad i gotta throw that lifestyle down the drain, no, throw it in the bin , tie a dead knot and than burn it down. ha. burry it six feet under. come to think of it, it has been " unexplainable, words cannot describe or explain this feeling" for this pass two year that i've came to woo her. dedication takes a life time , but dreams only last for a night. cause this ship is sinking and im thinking im done for, but this feeling isnt the first. i have came across this times before but i handled it quiet well. but for now, i think its best to throw it away. i have no use of it cause .i could dedicate a album to her but it does not mean anything to her. waking up from my dream , this two years of smooth sailing has to come to an end. i'll just rely on the clouds to follow me in my future . keep my eye on the world, towering on your head. i can do whatever i want , like you. i am no masterpiece, but she is. when all i wanted was to see the sunrise with you. is it typical for things like this to end like this . now i'm hoping to be a little stronger. I'll be fine, i swear.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Remembering Sunday - All Time LowForgive me, I'm trying to find. My calling, I'm calling at night. I don't mean to be a bother,But have you seen this girl?. She's been running through my dreams. And it's driving me crazy, it seems . I'm going to ask her to marry me
Even though she doesn't believe in love, He's determined to call her bluff. Who could deny these butterflies?. They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces. He pleads though he tries. But he's only denied. Now he's dying to get inside
The neighbors said she moved away. Funny how it rained all day. I didn't think much of it then. But it's starting to all make sense. Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds, Are following me in my desperate endeavor, To find my whoever, whoever SHE may be
I'm not coming back (forgive me). I've done something so terrible. I'm terrified to speak (I'm not calling,) . But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt, now the rain is just Washing you out of my hair and out of my mind. Keeping an eye on the world, From so many thousands of feet off the ground, I'm over you now . I'm at home in the clouds, and towering over your head
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
i wish i could care less about everything.i wish i could sit at home alone for the rest of my life. but guess what? its fucking boring . than i'll have to go out to have fun. but. i think im useless. no one needs me. in terms of job and friends. wrote like more than 20 fucking application forms but god knows what they do them. fuck. i rather tyou say no vacancy than let me fill in that bloody fucking form!. motherfuckers. friends. this word seems to not have a meaning on me anymore. it used to be the word i know most cause i usually use them. from what i recall, friends i slack with , have fun, spent time, and all. but now, i seems to be always alone at home, goin out alone downstairs and walking alone. the saddest part is, im fucking smoking alone. fuck that. i use to have a friend when i wanted to smoke, we would meet. ya, just to smoke. now , uh the word friends seems unsual to me. i feel like a complete loser with no friends and no job. most importantly, no life!. fucking fuck. i sit alone at home infront of this fucked up comp and wait for ppl to ask me out. and guess what? after i check back after some time, no one pmed me. what the fucking hell. am i that unnoticeable and useless!?! i dont know why this is happening.. mybe because i had been a fucking friend to god knows who in the past , and mybe its my turn? or is this just a test from above thats wants me to be patient? whatever it is, i'll just go with the flow and let nature takes it course. what about a girl? erm.. no way.. still sticking to this one mary jane watson i know. but she seems to like fucking still have no fucking idea. even after the letter. i donno but that isnt gonna change . not for now. until she at least have a full idea that im woo-ing her or until a good guy comes to her rescue. jsut wish the best for her. and i fucking miss her this holidays. shes so busy but i so bored. i just hope when results collect, that wont be our last please.
i almost hung up my line. cause i didnt wanna get call from people since im quiet usless and ppl would only text or call me when they have no choice. but than, instead, i upgraded my line. what the fucking fuck. guess i'll make the calls. no i wont. i wont the the guy who calls others asking wanna slack? no im sick of that cause most of the times i call, they will ya anything. but never. some even beter i come to slack sit like 3 fucking mins and they go off. what the fucking hell bitch? easy enough just say not slacking or smtg . or even say no they dont like me, im fine with that but making a fool outta me? your crossed the line you sick, shit senseless , motherfucking bastards. so the next time you take out your phone and dial my number, think again.